Transvestia

these scrapbooks also were filled with articles and pictures about femmepersonation, sexchanges, etc.

As a teen-ager, I found that my mother's shoes fitted me, and there followed my first exciting experi- ments with walking in high heels and with long silk stockings. With one of my mother's skirts, a cardigan and a bandana I could see myself in the mirror as a girl, certainly without cosmetics, to my sorrow, which had to wait, but nevertheless as a girl. My first wig I constructed from three of the biggest doll-wigs I could get hold of, and I found it to be a fine one. The sight of my silk-clad legs below the skirt was marvel- lous to me. Some handkerchiefs bound together made a bra, and the cups were filled with other handkerchiefs. I felt I had created something or better had found ex- pression for some ideas that were part of myself. Later in life I should find that all this was in accordance with the general pattern for the career of a FP.

As for back as 10 years old I had been thinking what it was that gave me this strange interest in femi- nine clothes etc. As the curious boy I was, I studied all sorts of encyclopaedias, I could get hold of at the libraries, but found nothing about my subject. In my early twenties, studying at the university, I began finding books and works about the theme. For the first time I became acquainted with the words "Transvestism and Transvestite". I read the biography of the Chevalier d'Eon and the books of Magnus Hirshfeld, Havelock Ellis and more. One day I found the famous book "Venus Castine" in the window of a second-hand bookseller.

Having graduated from the University, 26 years old, I began earning my own money. In the following years I bought my feminine wardrobe, little by little. The first feminine things I bought for myself were a pair of nylon stockings, a garter belt, panties and a pair of high heeled shoes. My first cosmetics were a lipstick and pancake. After that I bought a bra, but in a sudden feeling of guilt (I think it must have been such a thing)